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Do not ‘speak’ into the darkness, ‘Scream’ that Anthem

“Yahweh, Yahweh
Always pain before a child is born
Yahweh, Yahweh
Still, I’m waiting for the dawn”

If you live the human experience long enough, you are going to find struggle.  You are going to find disappointment and you are going to experience loss, heartbreak, heartache and perceived failures.  And while you sit with these realities in the darkness and silence, then the voices start.  You know, the really accusing condemning ones.  They sound like this:

  • You’re not good enough
  • You’ll never make it
  • Everyone else is better
  • It works out for other people
  • This has no meaning
  • You’re not worthy of goodness
  • No one cares
  • You screwed up
  • You’ll never figure it out
  • blah blah blah insert negative judgmental piece of crap lies from the pit of hell here

These dark nights of the soul are like a bully on the playground, the lies want to suck the life out of you and put you in your place of insignificance.  It is there where the fight for truth is held, it is there in the middle of the battlefield of your life where you sit and make choices.  With the enemy creeping in on all sides, in the words of Mary Oliver; “tell me, what it is you want to do with your one wild and precious life?”

I’m just a guy going through my own journeys and battles, waking up to voices that seek to keep me in my own place of darkness.  Here’s my advice:  Do not ‘speak’ into that darkness . . . ‘SCREAM’ that #$%^ing Anthem!  The stakes are too high for quiet whispers, this is YOUR life, this is your one, wild and precious life!  This is you, there is no one else like you, there never has been and there never will be. By definition you are a bad @$$.  Jeremiah 1:5 – “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart . . . ”  Before all of Creation, before God placed you in a human family to have a human and earthly experience, He knew you.  He has plans.  You are not an accident, you matter, you have a name, you are significant.  You are worth screaming for.  Do not whisper, do not speak, Scream your Anthem!  Call your dawn into existence.  

11 years ago this month, I lost 2 of my best friends within 17 days of each other.  This U2 album was really significant to me then, it helped bring context to the pain and loss I was feeling.  That the darkness was okay, it has it’s place.  The night is temporary, next comes the dawn.  The sun will rise, survive the night.  Confront the lies, obliterate them with truth.  Grab your soul friend, sit them down, and them let tell you who you are if you don’t remember.  Strangle the lies, don’t let them breathe.  Choke the poison and spill it out.  Do not whisper, do not speak, Scream your Anthem!

What is your Anthem?  It is hope,  You were destined to count in ways no one else can.  Dallas Willard said: “As water is meant to run downhill, so you were destined to count.”  Rage your hope, scream your hope, call your dawn into existence.  Hope is a primal scream in a world of darkness, let it rip!  You matter, you are here for a reason, survive the night . . . dawn will come.  And when dawn comes, walk into the light of the justice of your cause, the warm embrace of the sun, the arms of the One who made you and let him bring healing and freedom to your heart and life.  When healing comes, when you become a prisoner set free . . . seek vengeance.  Go find someone else in their dark night of the soul, and lead them to the light.  This is your payback.  You are dangerous.

Do not whisper, do not speak, SCREAM your Anthem!

Peace to you.

What’s next, Papa?


So don’t you see that we don’t owe this old do-it-yourself life one red cent. There’s nothing in it for us, nothing at all. The best thing to do is give it a decent burial and get on with your new life. God’s Spirit beckons. There are things to do and places to go! This resurrection life you received from God is not a timid, grave-tending life. It’s adventurously expectant, greeting God with a childlike “What’s next, Papa?” – Romans 8:12-15 (The Message)

For financial and personal reasons, I’ve just worked my last day in my present job with a wonderful company that gave me a chance to use my leadership and culture building skills in the marketplace these past 4 years.  I thought I was going to be continuing this role for quite some time but per a lot of factors, I found myself in a time of great transition.  The challenging part at 43, sole income in my home, wife and 3 kids, is that I don’t have anything financially to step into right away.  This was not the plan.   We did not come to this conclusion lightly, we walked through darkness and fear to a jumping off point that can only be categorized as ‘faith’.

So in this place of ‘faith’, we get to choose our perspective and attitude.  We get to choose what voices we want to listen to.  We can lament about the past, we can paralyze in fear of the present . . . or we can step out in ‘faith’ into our future.  There is no life in lament and fear, they breed death because they have no life.  The only source of life I’m aware of is the Author of life.  The God of the heavens and the earth, the creator/sustainer of the universe, the alpha and the omega, the One who spoke and life began, that’s the One we are following into the great unknown.  The only relevant voice to us is His.  He is our provision, He is the painter of the unknown canvas, He is the architect of our future.  God has never left us alone, so at this great transition in our life, we ask the Father: What’s next, Papa?’

I believe a part of this kicking a bird out of the nest is I confess that I have somewhat run from a primary calling on my life to use my voice to teach, write, encourage, inspire others to try things in their life that lead to hope, life and community development.  It’s what I’ve given my life to and I sense that God is now throwing me out into a future of being more direct with the formation of new communities and proclaiming an aggressive message of hope in a culture that is only celebrating destruction.  It’s not a time for being timid, it’s time for adventurous courage and a primal scream into the future a story of hope.  It’s not theory, it’s action and practice and experimenting.  It’s about local, family, community and neighborhood; where change can happen.

So, what’s next, Papa?

  1. ResurgamLife.com is where this blog will be moving to when it is ready and it’s a story-telling company I am launching next.  It is a space where hope and life is our rebellion, where that primal scream into action happens for a different future and a transformation of faith and culture in community.  It is where I will house and open-source my teaching, writing and leadership development opportunities.
  2. ResurgamCoffee.com is ready to launch in a matter of days, this is our direct-trade wholesale company that is on mission to fund hope with our friends at Lemonade International for the work with the vulnerable children of La Limonada, the most dangerous slum in Central America.  This is our family’s first company and it’s in collaboration with an amazing team of dedicated leaders who wow me in their talent and heart for the project.
  3. Online Professor of Missional Community and Organic Church Planting Specialist with MissionalUniversity.com.  It’s a global, progressive University launching in Fall of 2017 that I’m honored to be in the start-up faculty for.  It’s mission is to educate, equip, train and mobilize ordinary leaders (not clergy) to do the work of hope and God’s Kingdom building in local contexts around the world.  I will be writing curriculum for my online teaching modules for the next 9 months or so in preparation for the launch.  I will be sharing much of that material on ResurgamLife.com
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What’s next, Papa?  You can follow the story here.